i'm lost in this big world

wow. today morning i got two additional students (natalie & jermaine) transferred from another campus. i think they're the ultimate pro. haha. went to frog farm again today. they say we're lucky since we got to see tadpoles that are likely to be less than 2 days old.

i don't think you all can really see those tadpoles, they're really tiny!

this time round, quite a lot of kids get to hold the frogs. seems like they're more brave XP (though they're more quiet)

eaden and gwendolyn

ryan and ming shen

naomi

ming shen
and i believe we passed by kranji reservoir (please don't blame me if i'm wrong)

should be kranji reservoir. my geog isn't that bad right X.X
and i saw this super cute kid, gregory, a sibling of some other kids. ahh, he's really cute.

gregory

saw this on the way home

actually have much more to say but i really need to sleep soon. if not, i may not be able to wake up in time tomorrow. if i've time and i still remember, i'll catch up with the post XP

today's the first day of dvc week c. just as all others have said, the first week will always be closest. i'm still not used to the new lot of kids today. a side note is that they have lots of weird names like aiko, naomi (sounds japanese, right?) i was still thinking they were mixed blood or something (but they don't look like one) i promise those kids i'll try my best to bond with them but yet, those images and scenes from last week kept flashing back. it's still too similar, right? although it's already not my first, i must bear in mind there're kids who are here for the first time. i should give them the best memories and have them to enjoy themselves. that's the aim, isn't it?

同样的一个场景
同样的一件事情
做的人却不一样
曾经我懵懵懂懂
如今却得心应手

或许被你说中了，的确...那样比较好。

my successful attempt to create the crystal message!

going to start a new cycle all over again.
kids, let's all await!

天下无不散之宴席。
终究，还是，曲终人散。

elieen. zachary. zachary. brian. brian. ruben. suzanne. xiang yu. nicholas. travis. hwee en. timothy. megan. livia. olivia. alina. mathalina. teng yang. kyna. hester. bernice. jovan. sammuel.

23 unique individuals. 2 camp leaders. 1 camp teacher.
DVC 2009 week b - S6

i know at the time when everything's ending that i'll miss all of you, all these time spent are irreplaceable. the only emotion left was sadness - like everything's ending too fast. how ironical, when we thought everyday was passing so slowly.

你们一个个离开时，是带着怎么样的心情呢？
maybe's because it's my first week in DVC, that's why it hit me so hard. the more we do, the more numb we become. a robot without life. i don't want that. hope i'll still be able to attach myself to the next group next week.

went to have dinner at bpp with the others. i'm lazy to upload photos. so, please check out my facebook account for any photos. ok, i'm seriously missing all my sleep. goodbye, kids.

we've come to the fourth day of DVC. feeling the sadness of leaving - tomorrow will be the last.
went to health zone today with the kids. the bus uncle was funny. he didn't know where the health promotion board is and i became the guide. haha. to think that i'm familiar with that place. it was my dreamland when i'm young but my mum never ever brought me there except for check-up =.=

this is a stress ball given by mdm huda, the camp teacher =) (bought at the health zone there!)
the day went by with some gross experiments on chicken fats and muscles. hahax. i was all along very tired until we dance to the music 'i like to moove it, moove it'. that was like a 强心剂. i feel so high after that. the kids are so cute when they do the dance. i hope they can do a good job tomorrow on the stage. show them what you've, S6!
after the camp, the few of us went to get FREE starbucks coffee. i didn't know of such things since i don't often drink starbucks. we donated like around $1 per person since we'll feel guilty if we just take without donating. i ordered java chips frappacino. luckily, i made the right choice since it's very chocolaty and no taste of milk. yays!

this is the six of us in front of the starbucks at coronation plaza. why do all of us look so spastic? haha XP
after that, we went to burger shack to have our dinner. the burger was very thick, especially the bread. i was having a hard time swallowing down every bite. with more root beer down, i feel fuller. amazing right? =P

this's mine burger XP

this's yy's.

another spastic picture of us XD

我松了一口气。
thanks samantha and ee lin. you all are great XP
i just realised that we didn't write down the perishable items on the list =( i was shocked and thought of buying them tomorrow at NTUC in JP. but sam said they'll help us out. love them XD
today's another tiring day. had lots of fun with the kids. the kids almost had me 五马分尸. it's like 4-5 of them pulling each of my arms and surprise attacks from the other kids. ok, i know i'm fun and plays with them but this is really scary, ok? as the days past, i'm just thinking what will it be like when they're leaving on the last day. what if we grew too attached to each other? makes me feel like the separation will hurt. i know the more i let myself attach to them, the more painful the separation will be, but i just can't help it. i'd rather have a full 5 days of fun and leave the children with memories that they'll treasure for life than to just merely doing my job. love you all. hope all of have fun!

trying to create a nice curve with ikea cups =p

today's another fun but tiring day XP the kids are the ultimate. even when they are so tired, they can't forget about playing. haha. went to frog farm today with the kids. got a scare by the frogs (all because of jw =.=) and it left me with no appetite for the day o.O that's serious for me, considering how much i always eat XD i remember my mum telling me that when i was young, she brought me to eat 田鸡粥. then after i finished, i went to the back of the kitchen/kopitian (i'm not sure) and i saw those alive frogs and asked my mum what is it. when she told me that was what i've just eaten, i start puking. haix. forever, i'll not eat the frogs again. on the trip back to rgps, i was tortured by the kids =.= (2 of them specifically sitting in front of me). imagine being very tired and wanting to catch a rest, the kids in front of you goes "sleep, wake up, sleep, wake up". oh my, why do they have to play such games? it's torturing to close your eyes but not sleep. haha. wonders whether i was like them too. i guess so or even worse maybe. there was also a girl who lost her hat and cried. she is actually obedient at normal times so i was trying to comfort her when she sits on one of my legs. after a while, i realised that she might not be as light as i think (or maybe it's because my legs are weak. hope not X.X) but she is still a cute and nice girl (she helps in the cleaning up of table everytime. remarkable!)

a male frog - it's more colourful!

the more dull female frog!

ok. i started work in DVC today. oh my, it's tiring but worthwhile. those kids have all the energy to run and play, even after spending around 8 hours in the campus. wow, i'm amazed. (to think that i was once like that. OMG) everything went quite well today and according to those leaders last week, this week's kids are much more easier to control (luckily). hope we'll spent the next few days having fun, kids. i'm still trying hard to recall all your names and matching with your face. hope i still can recognise all of you tomorrow XP

是我想太多了吗？

i feeling excited about DVC tomorrow! going to start work - handling a bunch of kids and doing lots of experiments. hope i'll enjoy the time spent XP
i tidied up my room today and found this year's year book. all those poems of us in year four made separation seems so hard. yet, one year had just flown past. past memories are some things that we can no longer hold on to. no matter how hard we try, we must admit that we need to move forward.

潇洒的离别犹如昨日的情景
但朋友今日见你却已改变了
是岁月不饶人是时间在作祟
我们已经不能和往常一样了
分开时始终会带着一些遗憾
可惜遗憾也会随着时间淡化
新的朋友代表着全新的友情
但没有必要付出遗弃的代价
我知道有些人有些事有些物
在生命当中只是蜻蜓点水般
擦身而过留下的也只有回忆

可是回忆，永远只能当回忆。

后来的日子，我也不懂我是如何熬过的。
幸好在我最需要依靠的时候，还有你在我身旁。
我一直都很感激你...
知不知道？

“小歆，这是你父母为你准备的生日礼物。”
姑姑把手上的星形项链交给了我。
我小心翼翼地把项链戴上。毕竟，这是爸妈留给我的最后一样礼物。从此，那项链和我形影不离，就像是我的护身符一样。

自那天起，我就住在姑姑的家里。这种寄人篱下的感觉真的很不好受。况且，每次发生什么坏事时，大家都会用异样的眼光看着我。感觉上，他们都在责怪我。真的是我这个扫把星带给大家厄运吗？久而久之，连我自己都相信自己是个扫把星。每次姑姑大发雷霆时，姑丈总会罩着我，说一切都是巧合之类的话。我不是不感激他，只是当事情一而再、再而三地发生时，这样的一个说法就变得很没有说服力。不知道有多少的夜晚，我都在暗自哭泣。笑容，也慢慢从我脸上消失了。我想，若不是翔，我应该已经忘了怎么笑吧。

翔，大我一岁，是姑姑的孩子。
原名是昶飏宇。翔是我给他起的外号。自从搬进姑姑的家后，我和翔的关系也越变越好。翔待我如同亲妹妹般，让我倍感温馨。也只有翔，能够让我真正的释怀大笑。虽然翔其实不大，但他总喜欢装出一副大哥哥护着小妹妹的模样。得到任何东西也都会和我分享。渐渐地，翔成为我生活上的支柱——在一个冷漠的家庭里，唯一带给我温暖和希望的人。

但，就算只是这么一点快乐，上天也要从我生命里夺走...
翔和他爸，也就是姑丈，同样的在十年之后遇上了车祸。命运又再次捉弄我。当时，姑姑已顾不上什么，直接向我下了逐令，要我离开他们的房子。所以，我也不晓得翔和姑丈最后怎么样了。离开姑姑一家的这段日子里，翔的身影一直不断浮现在我脑海里。再怎么说，翔也曾是我最至亲的人。我想念他，同样也想念爸妈。又只剩下我一个人了。世界还是离我而去了。寂寞和孤独吞噬了我的心灵。我每天都徘徊在崩溃边缘。我已经不知如何继续生活下去了。每天过着讨乞的生活——恐慌、害怕，使我对每件事物都抱有疑心和戒心。早已对讨乞生活厌倦的我，有一天终于被其他乞丐游说成功，参与偷窃的行动。计划是在深夜里潜入大户人家的豪宅，偷走其中有价值的东西。为减低被抓到的风险和提高我们的收获，我们分开来行动。但，依旧是扫把星的我第一次行动就失败了，沦落到如今这个下场。

虽然很努力地在回想，我还是依旧想不起来这里是哪儿。我好想放声大叫，又怕会引起别人的注意，只好不出声，默默地等待不知谁的到来。

... ... ... ...
“翔，我真的很想念你。”
“翔，你现在怎么样了呢？”
“翔，你在哪里？”
“在我需要你的时候，你会依然在我身旁吗？”
... ... ... ...

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